I have been sitting here in my sofa for a while, just to let my thoughts wondering, it has a life of its own, for some reason I was kind of sad today or from yesterday, something to do with the earthquake of cause, by the way thanks for all of you for caring about my family and what happened to my home town, it is sad, can you imagine if it is your own family that suddenly lost?
I have been running around in the world filming and traveling, really forgot to sit down and think about my life, about the meaning of life, about why am I always running?
Finally I spoke with my father,
My father is fine, I talked to him for an hour, and he told me what had happened to him while the earth was shaking, he run from the second floor while he was playing chase, all the to the ground then to the garden then to another garden, the glasses of the window were breaking and flying as well as the building walls was falling, it feels like you are running in a boat on water, my father felt like a drunk man could not awake, by the way he dose drink a little every dinner, remember when I was a child I always want to try, then my father always use the tips of the chopsticks dip in the Chinese wine, even just a little its enough to get me kind of drunk, I was always so pale and the little dip of the wine could suddenly get my face red, how funny as a little girl you always want to have the pink color on your cheek, then I was happy......
I remember my father always like to smile and tease me with the little wine drop on the tips of his chopsticks, I really miss home, miss my family.
It was so nice talking to my father, last night he run from the afternoon till the evening and sit in the garden then run again and never got to sleep that night. My father said: well if you disturb nature, then the little monster sleeping inside of nature is going to wake up and disturb you, and if you dig a whole on the ground then the earth has to balance it and make it even then it is going to unbalance you.
It is sad what had happened, but maybe there is a listen to be learned for all of us: respect nature and treasure life.
I am sad for the lost life, I am sad for the children, I am sad for so many beautiful dreams have just buried in the dark.......
Send my love and the gentle breath to the ones are still crying......
My heart is with you.
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29 comments:
Ling,
I am so glad your father is okay. I am terribly sorry about the horrifying things that are happening in your hometown and throughout China. You are in my thoughts. JTF
Indeed it is nice to hear that your father is ok. Our thoughts go out to those who have suffered losses. I know that you are thinking of them too.
Bai-ling, you are an international media star from that part of China. Maybe you should do something for charity for those people or something...
I agree with Ron.
Right now, the media is very intent on reporting this. However, we all know how fast the media moves on to something new.
They will forget ChengDu and Sichuan, even though the people still need help.
It is an excellent idea for you to lend your name and your celebrity status to the cause, Bai Ling, and keep the help coming!
Nice post, by the way.
It is good that you humble yourself Bai Ling but with you nobody will expect it to last any longer than the next "nipple flash" or red carpet event. Somehow your words lack sincerity when you match them to your "usual behaviour".
It is good that you sit and think about whom you really are, you are not a stupid Black "gangsta rapper" and you are not a rich white film Producer. You are really little Bai Ling from Chengdu a once pretty and talented Chinese Actress who turn herself into an ugly Joke for the freaks of L.A .
Now you have sat there for a while and seen how lucky you really are compared to those trapped under all that Concrete, maybe you will start to have some self respect and start "Acting" properly again.
You are clearly running from something, you always have been but you can never run fast enough...you must stop, turn around and look your demons in the eye.
You are better than this, do not feel too bad. Many really do like you and they are waiting to see the real Bai Ling, not that horrible skanky thing Hollywood created and always expects from you...this is your running I think?
Now go and play your Pipa and think some more.
Dear Bai
You wrote such a nice letter on your last post.
It is very rare to be able to have a look in to the life of a movie star.
We are only use to see the glamour or paparazzie reports,
But your blog shows us how much the stars of this world are no different then anybody else.
Disasters of nature ,disease, war ,they will be around for as long this planet
keeps on turning ,they keep the population growth in balance, maybe that’s nature too,
and it’s always someone’s son ,daughter ,mother , father or friends… ,not always far, far
away in unknown parts of the world.
Thanks for sharing with us
I like your blog, I appreciate your writing, and pic sharing. It is not easy to do it regularly everyday. :)
show us ur nips
Bai Ling:
Heart and Soul you are the one.
Warmest of Hugs
Nicholas
Blessings to all.
Bai Ling and others who were recently:
A) Trying to re-connect to their Asian roots, and/or
B) Trying to find a way to help Sichuan Province, China, and Myanmar:
http://www.us.tzuchi.org/
We're doing fund raisers Saturday and Sunday here.
Nice one Darkness, although I think anything for Burma will be wasted unless someone takes out the vermin that is running the place and taking all the Aid for themselves instead of giving it to those poor people affected.
How do people manage to be so inhuman, to thier OWN people as well?
Strange World?
Hi, Went to bed last night not knowing about your Father and it was good to see your post this morning.
I was watching TV and the Chinese Ambassador. It really sounds like we should respect there wishes and help when/what they ask for.... It is shameful that the whole thing became political. I see both sides of this and the people are the ones suffering...
I envision Heaven being very busy with wispers in loved ones ears here one earth that are suffering," Come with me, come with me and be free." and feeling God warm, tight embrace as they let go...
Our thoughts are with you, Bai Ling.
Agreed, Ian. I heard their "leader" is passing out DVD players and iPods (on camera, naturally)... in areas where there is:
a) No food.
b) No electricity.
c) No one has enough money to afford a computer or a TV.
Slightly out-of-touch, eh? The idiot thinks the biggest problem his people are facing is lack of... entertainment??
I hope the aid gets to them, but I think a lot of what is sent will just go into the juntas coffers. And now I hear another storm is headed their way. Shades of New Orleans. Myanmar's "government" is managing to make FEMA in the US look GOOD!
Still, we have to try. At least we can help the Chinese people in Sichuan province.
Glad you not only found out your Dad is OK but got to talk to him for so long! I lost mine 25 years ago and miss him every day!
alan
For the life of me I cannot understand why forced intervention is not already being undertaken, I guess Burma does not have enough Oil?
I find it utterly abhorrent and offensive that they are not already openly talking about this. How can so many people in the World watch what is going on and do nothing?
It is PAINFULLY obvious that the Military Junta are commiting crimes against humanity.
Bai,
First, most important, good news about your Father. Not sure how much spirits you could get from the tip of the chop sticks, but apparently enuf. Second, thank you much for sharing your life with us, what you’re doing, experiencing, travels, etc., and your thoughts. It’s like you’re taking your friends with you to share your experiences. And all the pictures each day - wonderful. You may be always running, but you seem to thoroughly enjoy yourself as a free spirit. Thanks again for sharing.
I'd think the Junta/pseudo government would be pretty easy to overthrow right about now... Chuck Norris could do it. Hell, Steven Segal or Jean Claude van Damme could probably handle this one. ;-)
But we're too busy burning $15,000/second in Iraq.
No financial interest = no intervention. Just ask Darfur.
We use old Jefferson's "commerce with all nations, entanglements with none" philosophy very selectively.
Well said Darkness, I agree they are a tin pot nothing and easily pushed aside by the World, however....
Question is though, are the Worlds greasy and ever dispicable and cowardly politicians ready to do what everyone who voted for them wants, not for money but for the sake of peoples lives?...I doubt it.
Anyway at the risk of turning Ling's blog into a Political bullring (as some have tried to do by the looks of it) I will rest it there, I think it is safe to say we are like minded on such matters Darkness. Then again I think any civilised and decent human being would be.
So sad to read about the quake in your hometown. Glad that your family is fine but much sorrow for those who aren't. Love to read your perspective on your life and connections to others. You are truly beautiful Bai.
I can't stand it anymore! I'm going to edit Bai's post for grammar!!!
I have just noticed that I always keep something Chinese for myself in my house. I'm never here. It looks strange when I return from a trip. I have a simple apartment that I always keep near the sea. Somehow it makes me humble. I do not think I am a "movie star". I am just as normal [boring] as you are. This is the truth. The only difference is that I got lucky enough to make movies and to dance and live my dream because I believe in it.
[Too bad the dream didn't include English 101.]
I have been sitting here in my sofa for a while letting my thoughts wander. It has a life of its own. For some reason I was kind of sad today; from yesterday. Something to do with the earthquake, of course. By the way, thanks to all of you for caring about my family and what happened to my home town. It is sad. Can you imagine suddenly losing your own family?
I have been running around in the world filming and traveling. I forgot to sit down and think about my life; about the meaning of life; about why am I always running?
Finally I spoke with my father.
My father is fine.
I talked to him for an hour and he told me what had happened to him while the earth was shaking.
He ran from the second floor while he was playing chess, all the way to the ground. Then to the garden. Then to another garden. The glasses of the window were breaking and flying as well as the building was falling. It felt like you are running on a boat in the water. My father felt like a drunk man that could not awaken. By the way, he does drink a little during dinner. I remember when I was a child that I always wanted to try his drink. Then my father would always use the tips of his chopsticks to dip in the Chinese wine. Even just a little is enough to get me kind of drunk. I was always so pale and the little dip of the wine could suddenly get my face red. How funny it was as a little girl! I always wanted to have the pink color on my cheek and I was happy......
I remember my father always liked to smile and tease me with the little wine drop on the tip of his chopsticks. I really miss home and my family.
It was so nice talking to my father. Last night he ran from the afternoon till the evening and sat in the garden. Then ran again and never got to sleep that night. My father said, "Well, if you disturb nature, then the little monster sleeping inside of nature is going to wake up and disturb you and if you dig a hole in the ground, then the earth has to balance it and make it even. Then it is going to unbalance you."
It is sad what had happened but maybe there is a lesson to be learned by all of us:
Respect nature and treasure life.
I am sad for the lost life. I am sad for the children. I am sad for so many beautiful dreams that have just been buried in the dark.......
Send my love and a gentle breath to the ones who are still crying......
My heart is with you.
I prefer the sound of Bai Ling's prose...more from the heart rather than from a smart arse.
Excellent Karin! ****! 4 stars for you! And a smiley face. :-)
Now, if you'd like to be fair, repost it in perfect Mandarin - traditional, simplified, or HYPY characters, and whatever dialect you choose! Given the length of the text passage and the complexity of the thoughts being conveyed, you should finish up sometime in mid 2015. ;-)
:-)
Excellent!
I like the part about tasting a tiny drop of alcohol on the tip of the chop sticks for children. Thats love. Warm and intimate, and authentic.
Darkness,
There is nothing complex about Bai's thoughts. The complexity lies in translating them into english and even PROSE has some rules.
But I get you. That's what makes Bai, Bai. But I still feel she would still be Bai with corrected spelling and some extra thought.
Afterall, it would only be fair to the average reader who isn't a sycophant.
Karin, your opinions are typical of someone who doesn't regularly communicate with people for whom English (or any Indo/European language) is not their primary tongue.
It's funny, to me, to hear people like you make fun of my fiancée when she says some little turn of phrase that is awkward in English, such as "you will go with me together." The syntax in Mandarin is perfect. It's understandable in English - just quirky. The "fun" I get out of it is that she can communicate adequately in four distinct languages besides Mandarin, and five dialects of Chinese. She runs factories in three countries in Asia, and rides herd on sales rep firms across the US and Canada. If you have owned a computer monitor, a car stereo, an office chair, a printer, a keyboard, or a scanner manufactured in the past 12 years, she most likely had something to do with one or more of them. She's nicer than me, and smarter than me. At 5'-11" she's taller than me. She is perfect, and I'm insanely lucky.
And, when she wants to convey something with emotion she writes a lot like Bai Ling - who seems to be doing pretty well for herself too, despite her flawed English grammar.
In other words, they both run rings around the people poking fun.
So please understand that I speak from experience when I bridle at your attempt to poke fun at someone who is trying to parse similes, metaphors, complicated tenses and parts of speech from a Mandarin Chinese base into an English prose that YOU can understand well enough to arrogantly "correct."
By "complex thoughts," I simply mean that I am still doing well to ask for directions to a restaurant in Mandarin without inadvertently saying something hysterical and embarrassing, and I'm making good progress after a year. Bai Ling has had quite a few more years, yes, but the woman just described how her father felt when he lived through a 7.8 Richter earthquake, and it came out well enough that we ALL got it without your help, thanks.
This blogging thing is fun. For me, it's a nice diversion while I'm waiting for something else to finish up. You seem smart enough to contribute to the "fun" without resorting to sophomoric put-downs, derision, arrogance, and scorn.
Just drop the pretense and have non-malicious fun with this nice, weird, slightly surreal, off-beat lady's blog (and her matching fans,) or go teach English elsewhere, ok?
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